we miss you :(

The one who never complained, always smiled and amidst all the pain stayed calm.
People say be like lotus and bloom in a pool of ditch… but my goal is to be like You, my dearest Maama… 


it’s been three full years without you!! Yet I still cannot accept that you are not here.
 To me you are still there at your store, staying super busy minding your own business… One of my fondest memories of my childhood would definitely be seeing you work endless hours and still be very warm and fatherly… Your way of treating everyone felt so godly that no one could take your place. That heart of yours was so pure… always... 

It hurts so much to know that you are not here with us… and that everything broke apart…
Not talking to you while you were here, considering that I still have time will always be my biggest regret of this life…I miss you so dearly… those people around you didn’t deserve your love and kindness… they didn’t recognize your worth while you were here… 
My gosh! You are the epitome of goodness. How can life be this cruel…


It hurts so much, with every year … with every growth, I just feel so sad that you are not here to proudly smile at my accomplishments… I’m so sad that I have to introduce you while gasping for breath in sadness … tears fall when I talk about you because of the joy and also of the anguish that you’re not here…
Life sucks and when it does I feel that you are a better place… only in those moments I am at ease …
 Nothing has happened so far, same old...

I always go back to remembering you in your best form… and it’s so unfair that you left us so early… there was a big lump in the throat when I started writing this and now tears streaming down…
I feel gutted that I forgot all along how much you loved your life, kids, and family irrespective of the way they treated you and yes I will not forgive them after all these years, how tirelessly you cared about everyone amidst their hatred… and I cannot fathom the fact that you didn’t say a single word of complaint…

How can someone be like you?

I get stuck in my mind most times… I consider what I have to be the biggest problem, hurdle, and end of the world… I hate that I forgot all these things… hate myself for not celebrating you and not following your path… 
I assure you that I will live my life to the fullest doing the things I love and loving the things I do… I will cherish you in my positivity and ensure that the needy are taken care of in my best capacity.
I will always try my best to make you proud…I hope that you will always be my guardian angel…
Yours
The lost kid

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