Hope, finding the benefit of hope.

Can I get rid of the void that a memory creates?   I go around the world, making new ones… would it even mask it?   Maybe a new place, a new set of eyes to look through, or perhaps an entire life…   Would it, though? Would it erase the emotions that are inflicted whenever the memory flashes through my mind?   That one tiny speck… who would have thought…! Can I fill it in by adding one more or maybe two more?   I’ll forget it , I say… while remembering the wrinkles of the smile from that memory. Would that make me feel complete ? All those bags of what the world says as good memories and or what, at the end of the day, it would force as lessons ! Alas , I say, rubbing my eyes so hard I almost reach my mind, while trying to remember the color of the world. So, do I remember the actual version of the memory, the wrecked remains , or the easiest one? -Hope

Yayy, good news! Congratulations!! Maternity shoots It's a ! Baby shoots How lovely...   My grandmother used to say, " becoming a mother is the most beautiful moment a woman can experience ".  She hasn't slept properly for days, doesn't even know if it's day or night, just doing the routine job of feeding the baby, and celebrating with others . When asked about how she is, she says, " Yeah, um, I'm fine! I'm thrilled ," but she questions herself why she doesn't feel that way. She musters all the courage and with fear expresses her dark emotions, about how she's going through a weird feeling that was supposed to be cloud nine. Her family calls her a monster , telling her to get out of that space and be there for her child and to Grow up . She curses herself, filled with guilt for not being able to care for her child the way her family wants, the way society expects, and most importantly, the way she dreamed all her life . She still ...