Hope, finding the benefit of hope.

3 simple words that don't need any explanation, little did we know how many times we needed this and how many times we should have told them.  I understand you  we might have said this sentence in innumerable moments. To understand someone without belittling them, or without glorifying our problem. Being vulnerable in front of others and opening up about problems is the most difficult thing to go through as an individual and this adds a large toll to the problem making it an impossible situation. Though the world says you can build your life and only you can form your life , we need our loved ones at times of difficulty, and to share our joys.  If I say, the world is so atrocious and makes a person end their life, would you be shocked or would you say normality?  An estimated 703,000 people a year take their life around the world. For every suicide, there are likely 20 other people making a suicide attempt and many more have serious thoughts of suicide. M...

It is not the company that evolves with the change, it is the individuals within that company who identify the need for the change, bring in the change, and go through the change which is ultimately seen by the outside world as the company's growth evolution.  Now what is change, How to communicate this change without bringing a lot of commotion and fear? Is change always good? does it always give the desired outcome, and is it worth the effort? These are just surface area questions when there is a little to heavy modification in an organization structure.  If you think presenting such an idea is difficult then I would suggest you try and seed an idea into others mind,  If you think becoming that leader is difficult then I would advise you to try moulding one to be. Effective leaders are not just seen always on the screen, on flyers, or on rare mandatory occasions but rather are on the ground working with people for a common outcome.   This isn't new...

Solo trip is not for the weak hearts, I thought of this line while looking at the majestic and overly powerful lush nature, which was trapping everyone and turned them all into saints for that moment. I went on such solo trips, knew the destinations, and had no vivid places to visit. I traveled nomadic style and covered all modes of transport air, road, rail, and by walk. Visited, cities, mountains, and plains.experienced scorching heat, freezing cold, pouring rains, and foggy moments. Indeed 360°... You become your own master, financial advisor, guide, police, and whatnot. There are no limits to these kinds of trips, one step and you're in the wrong place, physically, mentally, and, emotionally. which is eerily scary but also comforting, you can control your emotions, not at first but eventually, you can. To sit with your emotions, for hours, what a joy it brings, people cry when they do this every time, at least I have happy tears. It was an overall 4 day of trip...

Imagine that you just got to work(not necessarily IT), you are about to begin your day but one of these things will happen… how would you react? 1. You will hear that your best friend at work had a wonderful thing and are over the moon. maybe you’ll scream and dance in joy .. party your heart out at the end of your day. 2. You see that the deadline you had is preponed and things are looking tough. you’ll curse the time… throw your hands in the air and then maybe take a quick break and then plan what’s to be done next. 3. You get a message from your family that they’ll be away from you for a few days and you’ll have to manage everything. You’ll think about how to manage things while they are away. 4. You get a message from your colleague that they had an emergency and might not be as active as expected you’ll worry for them and ask them if everything is under control and then maybe let them know that they can reach out if anything is needed… — maybe …. In our daily life, I’m...

Words!!! Oh, how silly they are … I need thousands of them to use and say that I love and miss my friend but I don’t have it  I want millions of them to say I’m sorry and to forgive me, but the void is all I find I have hundreds of them to use on people who have wronged me, and caused so much pain and suffering.. all I need is strength to not let them out I want the strength to ask the same things from the lords every day and use the same words but I’m running out of them every single time I use them… Oh words,  How cruel you are… that you hurt without letting anyone know that it’ll hurt … forever  You’ll cage a mind without allowing it to let a single emotion out!!   I don’t find it ironic as none remembers the sweetest form of you, you matter and exist only when you become a devil and control mind to use your worst forms…!!! Words oh words….!!!

The clock strikes 12,  I see the kids wishing their mothers and all the motherly-natured people, a very happy mothers Day, say they love them the most... But what about me? I let out a huge sigh as the tears won't flow anymore and my heart won't go any lighter.  I will have to put this strong face in front of everyone tomorrow, I forcibly close my eyes at 4 am to sleep, I see you, your happy face, your mischievous smile, your "see what I can do ruckus" activities and I see how calmly you sleep on my lap. Oh I so hate everything in this world, how I wish I can just stay in the past....i wake up to see some light but all I see is despair and agony. It's waking up to live a nightmare.  I prayed and begged everyone to bring you back, but that didn't happen, I pray and beg for your wellness every second of my breath, I wish I could change things ....  It seems longing for you is a lost cause, it seems it's too late, it seems I will have to move on, ...

Today I broke down during a discussion with my manager, it was nothing negative there was nothing discussed either...what lead to that was a question, Hey Asha, how are you? All the fort and mask I had been holding fell at that instance. Glad it wasn't face to face discussion...or was it?? Hey, Asha! How are you ... That Is all it took... How am I?? A question I have been dodging these whole 6 months, a question I haven't asked myself seriously.... Let me ask myself, how am I doing? Well, let's see.... To the Outside world, I have portrayed myself as this busiest person on the earth, enjoying her cup of coffee....literally.... But In reality.... I wrote a blog months ago saying how I was feeling numb despite doing everything that I wanted to do, and that I feel normal...looking back it was just a first aid done poorly, the need for the actual treatment was forgotten... Now in these last 6 months,  Some things happened that has hurt me a lot, have traumatized me,...