miss you maama

Hello Maama,
How are you?
It's me again.. can you believe it's already a year.? One whole year has passed yet I still can't process that you're not there with us. I still don't have the strength to look at your photo and imagine visiting the place you are resting. Why?? Why did you leave so early . i still had a lot to say, to share, to make you proud. I miss you so much. Are you in a better place, aren't you missing the family, kids ?? Of course, you're missing them .. the man I know never rested a minute..never thought about his wellbeing..look how things have become now.. 
 were you so tired no na you still had so many things to do...god is surely cruel. I don't or can't find any other way of processing..I will try to live my life to the fullest and make you proud. I don't know where you are resting but your thoughts and life lessons are and will remain with me forever. 
Why didn't I reach out to you in the past years is not the only regret I have, I can't stop it. please give me the strength, to forgive and to be less angry at everyone. Life isn't the same without you for your family...we all love and miss you very very much..

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