Hope, finding the benefit of hope.

I have been talking to a few people on different occasions, and forums, and lately, I have realized that people become anxious, puzzled, and almost uncomfortable when I  say good things about them(not praise but actual good things), multiple times! The immediate response I have gotten is, Thank you followed by some form of why I did this or what made me. And, until I justify things with reasons they are on their toes, post that, are they comfortable? no, they would want to justify it with something and tone it down...  Now, suppose I repeat this(saying good words), they look for the reason behind this act, is she in need of something, or do I need to do something or, how do I reciprocate to this? When they are unsure and their patience reaches the limit, I have been openly asked why I do this.  I sincerely thank you all for the open conversation and I will promise to make you all easy around me.  And, to those who are curious as to why I do this, Here's why?? My life...

As an engineer, I was always told during my studies that there should always be a known reason behind every step, and a definite approach toward it. Before that, in our mathematics or physics or any programming language we have always used the " something is equal to something " approach, it can be a definition, equation, formula or theorem or you name it.  So, how do we define, equate, formulate, and justify the term " Success "? Don't ask me, I don't know it either, the following are a series of thoughts or assumptions, let's see if it leads to some conclusion. 1. Can we define success in terms of effort?   If I have put in 100% of my effort and still didn't get the expected result, am I far from being succeeded? If I have put in 200% of my effort and I'm 50% to completion, can I say I'm halfway to success? Or, if I have put in 100% of my effort and I'm right on course to complete the things, but in due course, I have lost m...

Wiki says, The word comes to English via the French (se) mirror , from the Latin mirari , meaning "to look at, to wonder at". That was me, from the past couple of months, searching for myself in a chaotic me. Everything was normal yet I didn't feel usual, I was a fully energetic human with dead expressions towards myself. Everything was normal, tireless when it comes to day to day routine. I could and I was genuinely happy, on cloud infinite for others, when they were celebrating their moments (priceless ones ) and shared them with me, and genuinely sad or worried when I was aware of someone's distress. Towards me... nada. All I knew was, something is wrong but I didn't know what that was and without that, there was no way ahead. My first thought was maybe it is burnout, some time off would do good, but still didn't work out. with the responsibility of being me that everyone knows, I knew I cannot figure out even left with many days when I don't know why m...

Voice: Yes, you heard that right? Who are you? Me: (States my name..... )  Voice: that's the name your parents gave you! Me: yikes, okay! A loving kid to my parents and my guardians.  Voice: And? Me: go-to person, loving, annoying,  lazy, and a doting personality to my sibling and family Me: A joyful company to my friends, but I do disappoint them sometimes by being busy.  Voice: Oh! Me: A nightmare to my least favorites :D Voice: Damn!? Okay! Me: not just that, but An obedient person to my gurus and mentors  Voice: uh huh... Me: A very loving granddaughter who cherishes her grandparents  Voice:  hmm  Me:  also the one who tries the best to be kind, mindful, emphatic, supportive, and cheerful to everyone  Voice: mmmh  Me: learning to be better every day from everyone by being myself  Wait, a good employee, who loves what she does and tries to be better... Voice: Okay, I hear you, but who are you? Me: wh...

So... the holiday season is already here, and we are already listing down the things as our "Resolution"... So I have a couple of things to list down as well...... This year's theme was  " Being me, good me, better me, and the best version of myself " This year, I had only one thing in my mind, just be open to opportunities, give your best and just knock down every hurdle...2022 was a roller coaster for me but I really loved every bit of it. I'm sure everyone would agree when I say " life is only beautiful when you see it as beautiful" I just had one core thing in my mind, be humble, be always kind, and be emphatic. And with this in mind I did pretty okay, except few hiccups, I sincerely thank, appreciate all the good moments, and assure the lords that I'll cherish and nourish them, and apologies for all the mistakes or the slightest inconvenience that have been caused by me.  ( needless to say, the picture is me...just happy in my ...

Ajji, 2016, 6 years flew by!  I can't believe you're not here, not in any of our homes, complaining about things, scolding me (for so many reasons), listing a hundred things to eat, then complaining about the taste, filling us with all the family dramas, expecting and stating the saddest things though it's weird, and at the same time telling us to be stronger than ever... You were everything and I realized it after you left me, the Asha I was before and the one I became after you left was in a way puzzling... Even you couldn't have guessed it... I have not felt like you're not there, though I miss your songs and your weird way of saving money for your funeral (yeah she was a weird lady, and damn independent ), and man, you were so emotional, you were so open with me, you have cheered at my success, mocked for my dressing sense, joked about my hatred towards the usual norms, you used to be angry on people, cry with me, and yes you asked me to never forgiv...

When was the last time someone asked “ How are you??!!” And actually, expressed how you were doing instead of “I’m fine”?? When was the last time you picked up your phone and said “ I need to talk”? When’s the last time you reached out to that person and said “ I forgive you, without a prior apology “? When was the last time you regretted your actions and never repeated them? When was the last time you connected with a vulnerable person and said “ I’m here, don’t worry. Everything’s going to be alright “? When was the last time you called your beloved people and said “I miss you“ When was the last time you called your beloved people and said “I hear and understand you“ and meant all the words? When was the last time you received a call from someone and heard “ I remembered you “ When was the last time you said “I’m sorry and accepted the fact that you’ll not be forgiven” When was the last time you cried remembering the dead? When was the last time you cried out of joy? When...