Hope, finding the benefit of hope.

It has been a while since I penned something down… Because most didn’t care when I did, and there was a point in time, it affected me. Anyway, here it goes! Timelines … Dec 2023 - identified that the work life is hectic, and it may cost my personal time…. little did I know, damage was already done. Jan 2024 - didn’t know what to do, biggest achievement of my life but later in the month guilted me for even thinking of celebrating. Feb 2024 - running blind and pointless, screaming in the void. Mar 2024 - searching for happiness, not in words, trying to find the familiarity in something or anything… getting sucked into a black hole. April 2024 - fearing the end, anxious 24/7, still functioning at my max work capacity. May 2024 - searching for help, not through exact words, but actions, my face could say it, someone holding my hand could have said it… all I had was to be there… I gave up… I drowned in my misery for the first and the last time …  my dog noticed, only he noticed… ...

"Only a fool would try to be perfect at all times! Proving yourself by being everything to everyone is a way to bid goodbye to your essence, Peace of mind is to stay unaffected when things seem gray, not when they are black or white. Let a fish think that a bird is carefree and let a bird think a shark is the master of all!"