Hope, finding the benefit of hope.

So... the holiday season is already here, and we are already listing down the things as our "Resolution"... So I have a couple of things to list down as well...... This year's theme was  " Being me, good me, better me, and the best version of myself " This year, I had only one thing in my mind, just be open to opportunities, give your best and just knock down every hurdle...2022 was a roller coaster for me but I really loved every bit of it. I'm sure everyone would agree when I say " life is only beautiful when you see it as beautiful" I just had one core thing in my mind, be humble, be always kind, and be emphatic. And with this in mind I did pretty okay, except few hiccups, I sincerely thank, appreciate all the good moments, and assure the lords that I'll cherish and nourish them, and apologies for all the mistakes or the slightest inconvenience that have been caused by me.  ( needless to say, the picture is me...just happy in my ...

Ajji, 2016, 6 years flew by!  I can't believe you're not here, not in any of our homes, complaining about things, scolding me (for so many reasons), listing a hundred things to eat, then complaining about the taste, filling us with all the family dramas, expecting and stating the saddest things though it's weird, and at the same time telling us to be stronger than ever... You were everything and I realized it after you left me, the Asha I was before and the one I became after you left was in a way puzzling... Even you couldn't have guessed it... I have not felt like you're not there, though I miss your songs and your weird way of saving money for your funeral (yeah she was a weird lady, and damn independent ), and man, you were so emotional, you were so open with me, you have cheered at my success, mocked for my dressing sense, joked about my hatred towards the usual norms, you used to be angry on people, cry with me, and yes you asked me to never forgiv...

When was the last time someone asked “ How are you??!!” And actually, expressed how you were doing instead of “I’m fine”?? When was the last time you picked up your phone and said “ I need to talk”? When’s the last time you reached out to that person and said “ I forgive you, without a prior apology “? When was the last time you regretted your actions and never repeated them? When was the last time you connected with a vulnerable person and said “ I’m here, don’t worry. Everything’s going to be alright “? When was the last time you called your beloved people and said “I miss you“ When was the last time you called your beloved people and said “I hear and understand you“ and meant all the words? When was the last time you received a call from someone and heard “ I remembered you “ When was the last time you said “I’m sorry and accepted the fact that you’ll not be forgiven” When was the last time you cried remembering the dead? When was the last time you cried out of joy? When...