Hope, finding the benefit of hope.

June 14, 2022. If this didn't happen 2 years ago today...  would I have loved you this much? Would I ever have said out loud I'm your fan or realized myself? Would your story ever have felt like my story? When you cried in your last movie would I have cried that harder, would I have missed you every day, would I ever wished to meet you at least once, would people still deny your absence, or would you have known the 'charming one', or 'passionate or the hard worker? Would I have so many questions? Would I have argued with everyone saying you fought your best? And, did you? I've been known as the 'emotional', or 'too impulsive' or 'the one who just talks talks talks...' women, and many more... Yet when I look at you which is almost always I want to ignore all the questions and just be still,  I'm still trying my best to be kind and patient, you're one of the main reasons. I owe you a big one  This day always reminds me 2...

This is probably the obvious writing, what does music mean to me? Does music creates memories or do memories create music? The one thing I've always questioned myself about,  Is it just me that I have always associated people with songs, mode, and music, and when the person is no longer in life the songs sound different!! Is this why as we grow older we kinda shut ourselves from the world and open up to the music world alone,? Is this why these candid artists are more loved and adored? I have heard so many saying music is constant, and I have seen many doing very well with music as their best companion. Studies say people have different personalities and the music they associate with says a lot about them. But how can this be true? For example, when we are happy we always listen to happy music, when we are alone I'm sure we all have different music that we prefer, and the list goes on... Well, who's questioning? This is no sad talk, apologies if it gave the vibe...